Vol 15 - My Ideal World

Before The Alarm Clock Goes Off

I want to live in a world where every day is so exciting, so chock full of new experiences to look forward to, that people leap out of bed in the morning far before their alarm clock goes off.

How I Think “Work” Should Be

"When you enjoy what you do, what is the difference between work and play."

No Rich. No Poor

I want to live in a world where there is no : rich and poor, have and have not's,
privileged and unfortunates.

It Takes A Village To Raise A Child

I want to live in a world where adults understand and feel the need to raise all children, not just their own, that they are responsible for making all the children of the world strong and not just their own.

The Internet is a perfect example of children seeking out the answers they need from the global community, when their parents are not capable of providing the answers they need to know.

The Internet makes it possible for adults the world over, to be parents for children the world over.

The Working World

I want to live in a world where when a person arrives at work their boss greets them warmly and happily.

A person can feel how much they are appreciated, how much they are valued.

The difference between people isn't a matter of hierarchy, but of “more experience” and “less experience”,

with the goal of the “more experienced” to pass on their knowledge to the “less experienced”.

A world where a person's work is entirely dedicated to them growing.

The Welcomed Phenomenon

When people feel welcomed to knowledge,

When people feel invited to participate in understanding,

When people feel that they are wanted and needed in learning,

There is absolutely nothing they cannot comprehend or do.

Others Want You To Learn

When people do not feel that others want them to learn something,

when they don't feel that other people consider them worthy to understand something, they create their own internal barriers to learning, lest they be further ostracized and excluded.

I want to live in a world where everybody knows others want them to grow as much as they themselves do.

Honesty

I want to be honest with people.

I want to say what I truly think and what I truly feel.

I want to stop coloring my words.

I want to stop decorating the truth.

If I cannot be wholly honest with others, I don't care to spend much time with them.

In the kind of world I want to live in, people would understand, profoundly that : a relationship built on a foundation of lies is doomed to collapse.

Believing In Each Other Unconditionally

In today's society, believing in each other unconditionally is just not something we do.

How much further along in our evolution we would be, if we just believed in each other,

if we just knew that we were surrounded by fellow human beings who wanted nothing more than to see us succeed and shine, and them to enjoy the same.

Humanity : A Species Which Leaves No One Behind

In the kind of world I want to live in,

there would be no question that every single person had unlimited potential.

Society would be 100% dedicated to insuring that every single person was realizing their unlimited potential.

Society would not accept anyone not feeling fulfilled and fully actualized.

Somebody saying, "I don't feel fulfilled," would be a rallying cry for the society to move forward and insure that the person was returned to a path where they were feeling fulfilled and valuable.

Society would settle for nothing less.

If We Believe Anyone Can Do Anything...

Then the fact that the vast majority of people are living lives far, far below their unlimited potential is wrong.

In our society, a person is not discriminated against when applying for a job because of race or gender.

Every citizen is allowed to vote.

Anyone has right to a fair trial.

I want to live in a world where it is "normal", "accepted", "a right" that all of us whom comprise our society are guaranteed that the fulfillment of our potential is society's highest priority.

The problem lies in that, in truth, in our society, we do not believe any person can do anything.

We believe that some people simply cannot do some things.

We believe some people are good at some things and some people are good at other things.

Thus it is rendered acceptable that so many people live lives of quiet desperation, since they don't have “it”.

Thus it is rendered acceptable that the best opportunities are provided to only the few.

It is certainly possible for a person to pull themselves up from difficult circumstances to succeed, but,

if we live in a society that believes anyone can do anything, would it not make more sense that the whole population be given the very best opportunities possible to succeed.

We are a society that pays "lip service" to the idea that anyone can do anything, but still does not believe it in its heart.

I want to live in a world where everyone knows, in the profundity of their heart, that anyone can do anything, and, that as a society we settle for nothing less that providing every opportunity imaginable for everyone to make fulfilling their potential a reality.

The Split / The Suppression

I want to live in a world where I never have to "split" myself.

Split into the "socially acceptable me” and the "true me".

Purposefully Holding Back

I hold myself back from my potential because to engage in it, only to know that I live in a world that does not want me to, a world which does not support one another with all their heart, nor want others to surpass them, which looks upon the successful with envy and anger, would only end up hurting me, and I don't deserve that.

The reason people don't want to help each other is because doing so threatens their survival, threatens their sense of identity, threatens their sense of value.

The act of enhancing, of teaching another person is perceived as being an act which diminishes a person's own worth, which "steals their own thunder", threatening the validity of their existence.

no...I do not want to be unlocked and limitless in such a world.

So...I hold myself back from my potential...and I am frustrated...and angry...

In my ideal world, I would never have to chain myself so.

Human Beings, Are Meant To Stand

When someone feels they cannot support themselves on their own 2 feet, they will envy and rue others who can.

Not being able to stand tall and strong, is antithetical to human beings, meant to be proud and erect.

When a human being finds themselves feeling so, they will decline into all manner of perverse behavior. Why? They do not feel human, so they act inhumanely. When a human being feels strong and can stand tall, they are the embodiment of the noble creature they are supposed to be.

The Need to Feel Welcome

When people do not feel welcome,

they block themselves from making connections with their fellow human beings and the world.

In the kind of world I want to live in it would be common knowledge,

it would be universally understood,

that if a person feels welcomed,

feels free to express themselves without fear of rebuke or retribution,

is encouraged and supported unconditionally and lovingly,

if a person is believed in, is told they are special, they are invaluable,

if a person knows, without a doubt, that their species is wholly dedicated to them feeling fulfilled and actualized, there is nothing, absolutely nothing, a person cannot do.

My Ideal World

I want to live in a world which is dedicated to insuring that everyone is realizing their potential.

I want to live in a world where everyone is dedicated to making each other strong.

Vol 14 - My Ideal Life

The Journey

A backpack on my back. A road at my feet. And adventure ahead of me.

That's my ideal life.

Gain Skills and Abilities

I am going to travel to gain skills and abilities, taught to me by people who genuinely wish to share their knowledge with me.

This is one of the central draws of being an adventurer, of living the life I am going to live. Just as in my favorite video games, stories and shows.

You Teach Me And I'll Teach You

When I met someone I connected with, I would befriend them, spend time with them, learn from them and teach them.

Then, when I had learned what I wanted, I would pick up my bag and head off again, knowing that I had formed a bond and made a true friend.

Hunger and Thirst

This will be a Journey to follow my feelings and my heart.

I have a great deal of guilt and shame inside of me from the usual host of reasons, but, basically deriving from the fact that our society is a Capitalist one, and one in which human feelings are circumspect. Everyone has been severely damaged by the current societal system we have and by the irascible denial of our feelings. In all fairness though, this is as good as it's ever been, I just want it to be better.

The darkness and pain inside of me are a part of who I am. During my Journey, there will be times when I am hungry and cold. There will be times when I will need to depend on the kindness of my fellow human beings, when my survival will depend on their kindness.

My Journey will take me to wherever I feel the need to go. I'm sure that will include plenty of dangerous places. I feel the inexorable need to challenge myself and to grow.

This is also how true bonds are formed with others. When you need others to insure your continued survival.

This is already the case of course. We human beings are interdependent on each other for our mutual survival. It just doesn't feel that way in modern society. We just don't feel connected.

A Wanderer's Life -

Periods of Activity Followed By Periods of Rest

I want to wander to become strong.

When I tire of wandering, I will rest.

I look forward to the quality of rest I will enjoy : the kind of resting when one feels fulfilled and self-actualized.

A Restless Child

I was a restless child. I was the kid who had a very hard time sitting still in class, who just wanted to run around all day, who couldn't stand being forced to sit down and color in-between the lines.

I was given Ritalin to calm me and failing that, was sent to a "special school".

I did calm down, because I came to realize that if I didn't, I would be constantly punished.

It's quite sad...but I do understand.

There was an established system, an established point of view, and I didn't fit into it, so I had to be "made" to fit into it.

As a child, I was always drawn to stories of adventure and heroism.

I found it much more satisfying to be watching Saturday Morning cartoons of the struggle between the forces of good and evil than going outside.

My favorite stories were always ones of noble people overcoming adversity to save others.

When video games became a central part of my life, I forewent sports games and puzzle games, and was always attracted to games of action and adventure.

Games where you assumed the role of the hero, charged with saving the world.

I gobbled up stories of self-discovery, where the hero does not know just how powerful they are, but discovers it through challenges and trials.

The friendships I witnessed formed in my favorite games, shows, and stories were formed through surmounting mutually shared powerful challenges and obstacles.

They were true friendships, not ones formed over liking the same sports team, or mall cruising.

Heroism. Nobility. Adventure.

The central aspects of the kind of life which magnetically attracted me, were all part of non-reality.

"Stop living in a fantasy." Phrases like this one were always admonishing me, running through my head, telling me that I was not being grounded, not being part of the world the way it was.

My "survival instinct" was challenged. If I wanted to survive, if I wanted to live, then I would have to become part of reality, the real world. So...I did.

When I go on my journey, I will finally be given the chance to act in accord with my true self.

Why It's Taken So Long To Move

To put it simply, there is a good chance I might die living the kind of life I want to live. Impulsive and Impetuous. Following the ebb and flow of my energy. Honoring the feelings which course mightily inside of me.

I've hesitated because I felt I had to contribute what my nearly 30 years of slavery have taught me, the perspective they have brought me, the insights that have been made manifest to my eyes.

But I have held back for long enough. I am tired and weary and even now my insights are drying up. I must be true to myself soon, or I will not have any reason to continue living.

Children of My Own

I need to become a great deal stronger before I can have children of my own.

I sense that. That's why I journey.

Regret

I do deeply regret that I did not venture forth earlier in life, that I did not have the courage to do so. I was just afraid. I thought that there was a way for me to live the life of safety, and ease, and convention, without the fear and pain that come with being a wanderer. I was wrong.

In conventional societal terms,

I regret not having gone "backpacking" or doing my "world tour" earlier.

Now I will be a nearly 30 year old wanderer. 10 years later than is normal. I am behind.

I am one of the losers...It hurts.

Certainly it does, but, I could not force myself before. I wasn't ready.

I cannot intentionally hurt myself, nor

subject myself to pain and discomfort and misery.

I don't feel I deserve that sort of treatment. I don't feel anybody does.

Though I head out far too late in life, I understand why I do so.

Nobody else would really try to understand me, really try to help me.

It is not a part of our society for us to dedicate ourselves to insuring that others are happy.

We are raised to believe that we are on our own, that our responsibility is to make ourselves happy, and everyone else is of the same mind.

I wish that I had been able to tell someone else exactly what I needed, and they would have been able to help me understand my needs, but such was not the case...a common story.

There is nobody in our species strong enough yet to “really” go out of their way to help others, because nobody has ever done so for somebody else.

...I just want to be happy, for everyone to be happy. So, I journey.

Something to Offer

"Nothing is more fulfilling than when someone asks, 'Can anybody help?' and...YOU can."

I've always wanted to have something to offer others.

I have always wanted to have skills and abilities and knowledge and experiences, tangible bits of excellence, to generously offer and share with others, to see their eyes light up and their mouths curve into smiles, and for me to hear in their voice, to hear the tone, timbre and pitch of the words they speak,

be full of that emotion, that appreciation for my presence, for my existence. I am valuable to them.

I am special to them because I add to their life. I enhance their life.

I add magic to their existence.

Capitalist Dreams

I have never been interested in money or possessions. The idea of working, of doing something which I have to do, with the ultimate goal of just being able to survive and buy interesting baubles, repulses me. We're meant for more.

My Soul Mate

I have always had a difficult time bonding with girls. I feel insatiably restless and unsettled.

I now know that the only way I will be able to truly bond with a girl is if I am living a life where I am fully myself, where I am acting in full accord with my adventurous nature.

After all, how can a person truly bond with another if they are not true to themselves.

Acts of Heroism

Whenever I met someone who was in trouble and I felt I could help : I would. Why don't I do so now? Because I don't feel I can help anybody really. I am sad and angry all the time. Not so when I am on The Journey. Not so when everyday is an adventure. Who can feel sad living such a life?

Vol 13, E - My Best Advice For Life - Experiences

The Most Important Advice I Can Give To Anyone (Including Me) Is : Know Yourself

Know yourself in your infinite complexity and ultimate simplicity.

Doing so you will find satisfaction because no one knows your true potential as truly as you do, and when you truly know yourself, you will know: that your potential is unlimited.

The Surface Layer Of Thought

In our current society we are not given the time to dig deep into our thoughts, we are only permitted to engage in the surface layer of our thoughts. We are forever operating along the periphery, never encouraged to engage the core of what is human nature.

Take Stock Of Your Life

Regularly, take time for yourself to recall and reminisce and evaluate your life.

Review the experiences you have had, the memories you have made, come to understand the person you are by reflecting upon the experiences that have made you who you are.

Just as business owners “take inventory” of their wares, you too can take inventory of the memories and experiences which make you who you are.

This is very important to do, so that you know what your past has done to make you who you are.

Otherwise, you are operating, without knowing who you are, how your experiences have made you who you are, you are being controlled by forces you don't understand and, this is simply not a healthy state to be in.

Integrate Yourself With Your Past

“A Person Is, The Sum Of Their Experiences, And,

The Feelings Of Their Present.”

Commune with yourself. Remember who you are. It is easy to lose oneself.

There are many voices influencing your life. The voices and influences of others are like a wind which scatter the leaves of your mind every which way.

Take quiet time for yourself to go about collecting all your leaves and reconnecting with them.

Not Tapping Potential

If you feel that you are not living up to your potential, don't feel bad.

Our society is not one dedicated to fulfilling potential.

I would say that nearly everyone in our society is not even beginning to tap their potential.

Being aware of this releases some of the frustration that naturally derives from knowing one's life is not being lived even remotely to its fullest.

Live your life, but, know, that if you are frustrated by a lack of fulfillment, you are perfectly normal for society as it currently is.

My advice : If you feel this way, it's time to ask yourself and everyone else to create a society 100% dedicated to tapping everyone's potential.

Dreams Are The Blueprints Of Possibilities

Entertain your fantasies, because, are they fantasies, or, are they in fact, possibilities.

New Experiences : New Things

When you have New Experiences, you learn New Things.

When you learn New Things, you gain New Perspective.

When you gain New Perspective, you grow.

A Baby : New Experiences

Curiosity is intrinsic to babies.

When a baby hears a new sound, they turn their head.

It is natural to human beings to be drawn to new things and new experiences.

As natural as a baby turning their head when they hear a new sound.

The Human Garden : New Experiences

Human beings are like a garden.

Experiences are like plants and flowers.

A garden is made beautiful by containing within it, a wide variety of different plants and animals.

New Experiences : The Body

Just as the Human Body requires the physical elements of corporeal existence : New Food, New Water, New Sleep and New Air to sustain itself, the Human Mind and the Human Heart require the magic of New Experiences to sustain them. Deficiencies in any part, results in the death of a person, either immediately, or slowly by degrees.

The Human Need To Make Connections : New Experiences

There are physical connections,

and there are the connections made in the mind and the heart.

Streets. Paths. Roads.

These are physical connections.

Neural Pathways. Emotional Bonds.

These are mental and emotional connections.

The physical connections mirror the existence of the emotional connections.

The more connections you make the more quickly and more efficiently can you travel through life.

The more things you can see.

The more varying aspects of life can you experience.

The Senses : New Experiences

When the senses are stimulated in a new fashion, the brain grows in complexity and new neural pathways are formed.

I believe that scientific experimentation will demonstrate that it is absolutely vital for human beings to be exposed to new environments for their minds to grow in complexity and ability, tying in directly with a capacity to relay information through the mind more quickly and with greater efficiency.

The Well of New Experiences

New experiences are water added to the well of your selfhood.

The more experiences you have, the more water you have to draw from your well.

New Words : New Experiences

New experiences are like learning new words.

They open up your mind to previously unconsidered possibilities.

New experiences are like new ideas and new information.

They add to you, open you up to new ways of thinking and being that you had before not considered.

New experiences are something which sink into your bones.

They integrate themselves into you and become a part of you.

New experiences, like new words, expand your mind and awaken it to heretofore unimagined ideas.

Knowing Where Services Are : New Experiences

New Experiences add to the resources you can call upon.

When you move to a new place, you immediately locate the grocery store, the bank, the shopping mall, the cinema, restaurants, recreation centers, libraries, etc.

You have learned more.

You have grown.

You have more knowledge to call upon and to draw strength from.

You know where things are.

New experiences.

New knowledge.

New understanding.

By being able to call upon these facilities, you are better able to care for yourself and others.

New Experiences : "Is Anyone Here A Doctor?"

The more experiences you have, the more helpful you can be when your fellow human beings find themselves in need of assistance.

Sometimes, More Is Less,

And, Less Is More

At the moment our species has the erroneous belief that uninhibited, exponential growth is progress. It is not so. The Universe works on the principle of recycling. Unlimited growth is unsustainable.

“Growing, is learning to do more, using less “

In today's society, we purposefully bombard ourselves with stimulus so we are not aware of just how truly sad and disconnected we genuinely feel.

Consider, disengaging, and, taking time, all the time you need, to focus on just one thing : knowing you.

Conclusion

I offer you my best advice gladly, but, truthfully, I really have no idea what I'm doing.

This stuff is just the best advice I can give at this stage of my life.

I encourage you to ultimately advise yourself and find your own path. I do.

Take what you find useful and what you do not, simply disregard.

Every grain of sand offers a different perspective on life.

The way to live life is to appreciate every grain, learn from every grain, but, ultimately, to be your own unique grain.

Vol 13, D - My Best Advice For Life - Others

It Is Difficult To Celebrate The Success Of Others, If You Feel You Cannot Celebrate Your Own

When other human beings are successful but oneself is not, it is an unbalanced state.

Human beings exist in two separate states simultaneously : as an individual and a member of the species.

Unless both aspects are fully actualized, a human being is neither healthy nor balanced.

If You Aren't Feeling Attractive, Simply Don't 'See' Attractive People

Feeling your heart beat faster, your blood begin to boil and sweat appearing on your brow is unpleasant when you don't feel worthy of being noticed yourself.

In these instances simply ignore the person, don't 'see' them.

Look right past them. Look right through them.

The way life should be is everybody looking in the mirror and thinking, "Damn. I'm hot." When an attractive person looked at you, you knew they were enjoying what they were seeing.

When such is not the case, it is painful for both parties. Until our species matures and insures that everyone is “a sexy beast", don't “see” attractive people when you aren't feeling so yourself. You don't deserve to suffer. Nobody does.

A Healthy Relationship Is When Two People Are Strong Apart, And Become Stronger Together

,or,

When One Person Is So Strong, They Are Able To Carry The Other Person Until They Are Strong Enough To Carry Themselves

In both cases, both people "need" each other and "feed" each other at the same time. Give and Take. The intimate union of two human beings is an intricate exchange of energy. Energy need flow both ways, lest one person become wholly depleted and the relationship collapses.

People Hurt Others To Express Their Own Pain

When people say hurtful things, look to the pains they do not talk about. It is their unspoken pains which are speaking. Human beings are naturally loving, generous and noble. It is only when human nature is perverted by unexpressed pain that human beings are hurtful.

Make Them As Children

When you feel anxious or apprehensive around adults, do a very simple thing : imagine them as children. Picture how they likely were when they were children. By seeing, large, angry, intimidating adults as the children they once were before the cruelty and callousness of a Capitalist system turned them into the cynical, bitter adults they are, you will find that you can understand the pain they are in, and the crushed dreams they carry close to their hearts, and you will find you have empathy for them, and they are not so scary after all.

Tell Children Of Your Regrets

In a society which does not support nor encourage people to follow their dreams with absolute, unfailing dedication, it is inevitable that the vast majority of adults are ladened with regrets. It is vitally important that disenchanted adults tell the next generation of all the regrets their heart is full of, to show the sadness that weighs them down in all its melancholy pressure, so that children see and feel irrevocably the pain that all those regrets have caused adults.

By telling children of your regrets, by showing them the emotional pain those regrets cause, you help them to avoid having those same regrets in their own life. In Antiquity when someone ate a poisonous mushroom and died, their having identified that mushroom helped the rest of their people. We human beings help each other, by telling one another of the regrets which have made our lives much less wonderful than we envisioned they could be.

Everybody Is Doing The Best They Can With What They Know

That means that nobody knows what is the “right” way to do things, only the best way they are aware of.

That means that any way you come up with to do things is just as valid as any of their ways because there is no “right” way to do things.

It is important for a person to not limit themselves based on what they believe other people consider is the right way for something to be done.

The Greatest Thing You Can Do For Another Human Being, Is To Be One Of The Forces Contributing To Their Growth.

The Worst Thing You Can Do To Another Human Being, Is To Be One Of The Forces Causing Them To Diminish.

Enhance Others

When you make others better, you make yourself better; for the higher they climb, the greater heights you will be inspired to raise yourself to.

Look At The Person Who Gives You Advice

When somebody gives you advice, look at the person, feel the person, see the person, and ask yourself if you want to heed the advice of this person.

Earn Your Own Respect

The person you can truly count on,

the one who will always be there for you is : you.

The person who always has to act on your behalf is : yourself.

Earn your own respect,

because more than anybody else,

your respect is the one you most need to earn.

If You Accept The Way Others See Things, You Are Blind To Your Own Vision

Ultimately the way you perceive existence is different from every single other person on the planet.

Such is the truth of being an individual.

Trying to adopt somebody else's beliefs as your own, cannot but create friction inside yourself.

You are a unique puzzle piece.

Trying to get somebody else to fit you : will not work.

The Only Person You Can Truly Count On (At This Stage Of Human Evolution) Is : Yourself

Until Humanity thinks of itself as an intrinsically interconnected species,

one bonded with each other, with animal and plant life and with the universe itself...

So long as human beings view themselves as separate and distinct and "better" than the rest of existence,

human beings CANNOT truly care for each other, and the only advice you can truly count on is your own.

The only person who truly knows you is : you.

The only person who truly understands what you have gone through is : you.

The only person who can ever truly care for everything that makes you you is : you.

When Humanity has learned telepathy, linking and the other techniques of human communication beyond the primitive ones of lingual and gesticule, human beings will be able to genuinely and wholly care for and understand one another.

Until we reach that level, you are the only one who really “gets you”.

With this in mind : temet nosce. (know thyself) and amore nosce (love thyself).

Know that human beings have the capability to truly bond with each other, but, we have not reached that state of evolution yet.

Knowing this you have something to strive for and look forward to.

You will not feel so disappointed by the lack of connection between us, the lack of a true bond that leaves the heart wanting.

We are most certainly capable of that connection we crave, it lies in our future.

For now, know what we are as a species, what we are capable of, and know that you are the only one so far who can truly understand you.

Don't worry. You are more than profound enough to take eternity to get to know, For you are limitless.

Nobody Really Knows Anything

Know implies Permanence. An impossible state in a universe where the only constant is change.

People will offer you their advice, but, if they try to pass off their advice as certain knowledge, there is no need to accept it as such, because the truth is that nothing in the universe is certain.

Ultimately, heed your own advice.

Thank people for theirs, but know that it is not certainty, just belief.

Conclusion

I offer you my best advice gladly, but, truthfully, I really have no idea what I'm doing.

This stuff is just the best advice I can give at this stage of my life.

I encourage you to ultimately advise yourself and find your own path. I do.

Take what you find useful and what you do not, simply disregard.

Every grain of sand offers a different perspective on life.

The way to live life is to appreciate every grain, learn from every grain, but, ultimately, to be your own unique grain.